Lif's good, my nigga. What more can I say? Knock on wood,

The latest and next greatest metamorphosis for this lonely butterfly will be the ascension to a modern goddess. But do this, a few layers must be shed, a complete cleansing of current self.

• No more negative energy
• No more self-doubt
• No more hesitation
• Stop being poor
• Stop being ugly
• Stop being lazy
• Lose weight

Virtues of the Modern Goddess:

• Pure in mind, body and spirit
• Strong 
• Independent
• Spiritual
• Creative
• 'Woke'
• Educated
• In touch with energy 

Secular Attributes of a Goddess:

• Vegan
• Yogi
• Artist
• 
  

There is a hurricane coming up the Carolina coastline this weekend. So far, it has hit Jamaica, The Bahamas and Haiti. Many people are dead, and there is word that another storm (Hurricane Nicole) is quickly approaching. I hope everyone will be okay this weekend. I doubt we (as a town, so far in-land) will be effected but I still worry, ya know?

In other, non-related news, Erik asked me a strange question earlier today. He wanted to know, which artist or musician, "spoke to my soul." It was an...odd question to think about. It really put a few things into perspective if I were to be honest with myself. I don't think I know the right answer to that question. I told him that the music closest to my soul, so to speak, would be the music I listened to during my Jr. year of high school. Between the bs with abusive friendships, the slip from academic grace, and the ever growing bulimic tendencies, in mind, that music felt like the only thing stable to cling to sometimes. I honestly feel like a different person now in someways, but I acknowledge that awful things that happened from that year and carry them with a certain level of pride. I am stronger now because of those events. Although, I'll admit I am not currently where I saw myself being when I was in Sr. year, quite literally at the top of my game, I am quite proud of where I am headed. 

Erik said he was proud of me. That really helps a lot. Erik also said he often felt the same form of strength from, Elise by The Horrible Crowes.

Mood: Make It Right by The Narrative

Erik's Music

Hello there,

Today is my last day here in NJ before I head back to campus. Didn't really get the chance to see my family but Ashley and Caleb had a great time. It was such an honor standing as someone's Maid of Honor but if I had to be honest...I don't see me ever having that privilege again.

It was nice and I wish them both the best. They deserve each other, really. I don't think I've ever watched someone fall in love before, but Ash and Caleb...
They make you want to believe in the idea of True Love, ya know?

-Gabbie
Helpless Romantic

Whenever I am feeling sad, which isn't too common any more, I usually watch this. It feels like a visual reminder that I am truly loved and that I exist in the minds of others, even when I do not exist with them physically. The artist is named Ibi, and I think I am in a little bit in love with him, even if I don't deserve him sometimes..

-Gabbie

Lonely Heart

Mood: Wistful but fine

Location: NJ (I miss Ibi,,)